observation: first week home

First week home was filled with overwhelming emotion of joy accompanied with major labor pains. Vicodin was my bestfriend. Also experienced baby blues due to roller coaster of emotions. The feeling of guilt from not spending much time with Meagan made it even worse. Found myself crying for no apparent reason at times.

Life with two can be best described as chaotic fun. One cries for attention while the other is screaming because she spilled a drink on herself. Without much warning, you may have two newborns because our four year old can no longer talk and wants a blankie just like her baby sister. Bedtime requires much more time and patience as the older one goes through her bedtime rituals while the little one is fed and gets ready for the night. If lucky, we will have about 1 hour of free time to just rest before the night shift begins. Then we get to start all over again the next day! With lack of energy and sleep, the only thing that keeps us going is the unconditional love for our children. Just a simple sniff from Emma's sweet milk breathe and Meagan's sweet smile in the morning is enough to get us started each and every day.